My work had a costume contest and I ended up tying with another co-worker for first prize. I was so upset and angry. I almost started crying. Which is NOT like me at ALL. Then 10 mins later I was laughing hysterically as I opened in the mail with my fake dagger.
November 3, 2011
I took a pregnancy test and saw a very faint second pink line. I ran to my "What to Expect While You are Expecting" book and saw the odds of a false positive are slim to none. I was pregnant.
November 23, 2011
First visit to the doctors office. I only met with the assistant to go over my medical history and draw blood.
November 24, 2011
Starting to get nauseous conveniently on Thanksgiving... what the hell.
December 6, 2011
We tell our parents they can start telling people. Big mistake!
December 7, 2011 - Wednesday
Doctor appointment in the a.m. for a normal exam and checkup. Then ultrasound in the p.m. Ultrasound tech didn't say one word to us and told us our doctor would call. 3pm - 2 hours after the appointment: Medical assistant calls and said there was no heartbeat and they want to schedule a D&C. I say "But I am not expiriencing any cramping, bleeding and I was nauseous this morning." Med Assist: "Let me look at the ultrasound and call you back."
... no call Wed, Thurs, Fri, Monday
December 13, 2011 - Tuesday
I am pissed off! I call up and speak to the medical assistant again (apparently the doctor doesn't speak with patients) and ask the same question. She tells me she has to talk to the doctor and would call me back. I wait impatiently. An hour later she repeats the same speech about the D&C.
December 27, 2011 - Tuesday
I have my first appointment with my new doctor. I haven't had any cramping or bleeding so I am optimistic. The ultrasound tech said the baby stopped growing at 7 weeks (the same week as my last ultrasound) and I would need a D&C. I was disappointed but I had already started the grieving process 2 weeks prior.
January 31, 2012
I received the D&C 3 weeks ago, although the same week I did start bleeding & cramping. I have gotten over the pain and grief of losing my first baby. I am ready to move on with a new plan. Obviously I am damaged in some way. I need to repair the damage and find out everything I can go to ensure my next baby comes out healthy.
February 1, 2012
From 2006 to 2009 I was vegetarian, and I am ready to start that journey again. This time armed with knowledge that will prevent me from ever going back.
February 21, 2012
